Tuesday, January 26, 2010

The Wind Will Take Us


The Wind Will Take Us

In my small night, ah
the wind has a date with the leaves of the trees
in my small night there is agony of destruction
listen
do you hear the darkness blowing?
I look upon this bliss as a stranger
I am addicted to my despair.

listen do you hear the darkness blowing?
something is passing in the night
the moon is restless and redand over this rooftop
where crumbling is a constant fear
clouds, like a procession of mourners
seem to be waiting for the moment of rain.
a moment
and then nothing
night shudders beyond this window
and the earth winds to a halt
beyond this window
something unknown is watching you and me.

O green from head to foot
place your hands like a burning memory
in my loving hands
give your lips to the caresses
of my loving lips
like the warm perception of being
the wind will take us
the wind will take us.
-----Forugh Farrokhzad

Saturday, January 23, 2010

words and image

The Phone Booth

She slumps in the booth, weeping
into the phone. Asking a question
or two, and weeping some more.
Her companion, an old fellow in jeans
and denim shirt, stands waiting
his turn to talk, and weep.
She hands him the phone.
For a minute they are together
in a tiny booth, his tears
dropping alongside hers. Then
she goes to lean against the fender
of their sedan and listens
to him talk about arrangements.

I watch all this from my car.
I don’t have a phone at home, either.
I sit behind the wheel,
smoking, wanting to make
my own arrangements. Pretty soon
he hangs up. Comes out and wipes his face.
They get in the car and sit
with the windows rolled up.
The glass grows steamy as she
leans into him, as he puts
his arm around her shoulders.
The workings of comfort in that cramped, public space.

I take my small change over
to the booth, and step inside.
But leaving the door open, it’s
so close in there. The phone still warm to the touch.

I hate to use a phone
that’s just brought news of death.
But I have to, it being the only phone
for miles, and one that might
listen without taking sides.

I put in coins and wait.
Those people in the car wait too.
He starts the engine then kills it.
Where to? None of us able
to figure it out. Not knowing
where the next blow might fall,
or why. The ringing at the other end

stops when she picks it up.
Before I can say two words, the phone
begins to shout, “I told you it’s over!
Finished! You can go
to hell as far as I’m concerned!”

I drop the phone and pass my hand
across my face. I close and open the door.
The couple in the sedan roll
their windows down and
watch, their tears stilled
for a moment in the face of this distraction.
Then they roll their windows up
and sit behind the glass.

We don’t go anywhere for a while.
And then we go.

------ Raymond Carver

Reading Raymond Carver's poem and novel, Edward Hopper's works aways came to mind, that sense of lonesome, quite anger, and compromise to the reality lies under those words and images, timeless, spaceless.

Carver use of simple words, has shaped those ordinary characters that surrounded us each day, underneath of the story, are those hopeless, helpless individuals facing mediocre everyday life.

Hopper's famous vanishing point of the street, and each character always sit the center of that point, drawn a distance, both visually and psychologically.


Saturday, January 9, 2010

那样的一个年末

那天下着小雨,夜里我坐在朋友的车里,对面车辆反射的灯光,模模糊糊,星星点点,折射在雨点打过的车窗,我喜欢这样隔着看外面的世界,有一种距离感和时间感。
Astoria Blvd在雨中显现的如此杂乱,架在天上的地铁,仓促行走的人们,没有树没有草,只是淋湿的水泥街道映着路灯五彩六色的影子,和一栋栋老旧的楼房伫立在高速公路旁,这样一种工业社区的感觉,没有人情味。车里的我们,好像一个个都劳累了一天的样子,也没有太多的交谈,只是想快些到达菜市场,买好了东西回家吃饭。
看着窗外高速公路恍惚的灯光,我才发现对于这个城市的街道是如此陌生,车中的景像和地铁中看的完全不同,这甩在身后的楼房街道,都是我所熟悉的吗?也许黑,地下的黑才是属于我的风景。
这一年仿佛是转眼间的,我还记得一月那刺骨的冷风,三月那一夜开满的梨花,七月炎热的青藏高原,还有十月,那个属于我自己的十月。回忆,又是那些容易迷惑人的记忆,因为,记忆中的人们和场景总是那么凄美。

这是2009年的最后一天啊,可是好像也没有什么大的不同,自然界还是一如往日的面对着我们,只是平庸生活的人们为自己找快乐的方式而已。

Friday, January 8, 2010

字里行间

一只眼睛是红色的,我想,这两天,有点忙的过头了。
整个假期写下的文章,在修改中,只是,当我一遍遍的读这些文字时,我变的很心虚。

这两天读到 John Berger写的文章,其中提到他对艺术的定义:
“判断一件艺术作品,我是看它是否有助于人类的现代世界要求他们的社会权利。”
他的文字永远是点到要害,写到看似日常但却是生命精髓的事件。一个一生专注于写作的英国人,最后选择生活在法国的农村,躲避城市的喧闹,异国它乡,对生活对艺术的感悟,“时间的问题是选择的问题。”
不是吗?

由于部展,身体变的劳累
由于写稿,大脑变的劳累
当这两种劳累符合在一起
我发现
我是那么香甜的睡着

2010年的第一个星期,没有留意已经流过,
在沾满黑色油漆的手指间,
在word document删除与加入的字里行间,
等待我的将是选择的一年,

选择,
多么可怕又兴奋的字眼。

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